# kissing the trash !!

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i’m unhappy
what more could you possibly have to say to me?
what more could you possibly want from me?

and you act like you’re blameless,
but you’ve done the same as me
and you’ve agreed that
we’re just as bad as each other

sometimes i wonder if you hate me,
if that resentment is growing inside you
and you told me it’s true.
but that you love me

and i don’t see how you can have both
i don’t want it to be both
and now it feels like it’s the end

here, at the edge
caught between the person i want to be
and the person i’ve become

if only you saw me the way i see you
the way i saw you
if only your thoughts didn’t betray your words
if only you were kinder
i want to be kind, too

i try to bite my tongue
to hold back the frustration
but it builds and builds
until i break
like i always do

and then you look so hurt
like i was the one who started it
but i don’t feel anger
i feel shame
for what i’ve let myself become
for letting you pull me into this endless cycle

i wonder if we can make it work
if we keep looking to the future
where everything is perfect
i wonder if i’ll ever forget how you made me feel

but i’ll be okay
i’ll figure it out
i always do,
right?

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